Angry... Old draft from 2015

(This was from October 2015--who knows what prompted this little tirade...doesn't make it any less true just because I don't remember the why behind it 🤷🏼‍♀️)

All I ever wanted was...

his time

his smile

his honesty

his effort

and to be a priority.

After that fateful, unprotected drunk fuck he had with the dirty bar whore,

All I got was...

less

than 

I 

deserved.

Stolen time

or

excuses for time not spent

Distracted smiles.

Lies.

Minimal effort.

Zero Priority.

Even when we were to talk about us...

I got less than I deserved because he had a club meeting to get to.

Well...

Then he should NOT have agreed to meet that day because 

HE

DIDN'T

HAVE 

THE 

FUCKING

TIME

TO 

PRIORITIZE

SOMETHING

SO 

INCREDIBLY

IMPORTANT

(apparently only important enough to me though...)

Seems to me that was the buffer excuse because he didn't want to have to deal with everything he knew would be flung at him had he actually been respectful enough of our relationship to give it what it deserved... 

Oh wait... if he'd have been respectful of me and valued our relationship, he'd have never fucked the dirty bar whore in the first place.

Sick of all the excuses that he calls "reasons".

Just sayin'