Trust No One...

I will never be who I used to be.

I wonder who I'll be when all this finally settles out.

I hope it’s someone better.

I deserve better.

I deserve to be better.

I will be better.

I AM better than this.

Not someone's plan B or C.

Look out world because... 

I will be back

I will be more capable

I will be more precious

More aware.

Just....more.

For this experience, this...

Those are not my truths...

I am:

Nice enough.

Pretty enough.

Thin enough 

(well...that needs a little work...lol!)

Talented enough.

Stable enough 

(funny how I seem to be the only sane factor in this whole fucking shitstorm...what's THAT say?!?!)

Plenty calm enough.

There is nothing wrong with me.

And I AM more than enough.

He was just too wrapped up in his own damn self to see that.

HE chose--HIS choice now defines HIM.

I'm done with MY truths being about anyone else.

I’m not a victim.

I am strong.

And free.

And powerful in my truth.

This..."experience"?

This crushing despair?

This utter heartbreak and disappointment?

It’s made my heart

A diamond.

So, my heart...remember this:

You are:

Priceless.

Rare.

To be cherished.

This realization made me

More aware of my self-worth than I ever thought possible.

NEVER to be someone's 2nd.

Ever again.

If I am not a priority to someone, then they're not an option to me.

"everyone betrays you in the end"

-just sayin'...

and it's usually those we least expect it from.

so...

Trust no one.

Lesson learned.