I'm Lovin' It

I have to say that striking out on my own and making it is incredibly empowering.  In two short weeks I managed to get a place and pretty much get it set up on my own as well.  Not everything is new--I simply couldn't do that on the budget I have to work with, but everything I do have is nice.  My bed is brand new though--I can sit on someone else's couch, but never could I sleep on some stranger's cast off bed.  Just ew...no. And again, I have incredible friends who gave me wall art and housewarming gifts to make it a cozy little haven of peace and independence.

Why did I wait so long to make this move?  No real idea.  But now that it's done, I have to say I am simply beyond happy as a normal emotion.  I literaly smile every single time I unlock my door and walk in here.  This place is, in a word, me.  My colors, my tastes, my space to do with whatever I please (within reason--it is a lease after all).  I just love it.

Tripp was finally able to have a look see for hmself today.  I kept telling him how small it was, so I think he was pleasantly surprised.  In my defense, I'm used to a house sized space so it does seem very small to me, but it is working out nicely regardless.  Anyhow, he likes it too.  Which is a good thing because it's as much his space as it is mine.  He will have a key so he can have a peaceful haven to regroup in.  I told him as much and he is free to come over regardless of my being here or not.  I even said he could riffle through my underwear drawer if he wanted to.  LOL! I've got nothing to hide.

That's another incredibly liberating thing--getting ahead of my crap insead of waiting for it to get ahead of me. The stbx is well aware of my emotional investment in my relationship with Tripp, and while I am sure he is curious, he has refrained from grilling me about it.  Maybe he knows more than he is letting on, or maybe he just gave up caring about something that was only a symptom of a much deeper relationship issue between us.  Either way, we're moving through the process amicably and relatively peacefully.

Life is good & getting better all the time.

Just sayin'...